And then his nervousness grew as he kept chattering his way while simultaneously thinking of ways to get closer and establish more proximity..
She wondered -WHY?WHAT??
Ofcourse she knew what was awaiting her and at the same time felt completely disconnected.
She didn't mind though. I mean come on!just a kiss and a girl of only 19.Who cares?
"i have all the time in the world to become more responsible for my actions"she thought.
And then came an end to the chattering and for her it was the end of all disguises.
As he made his move and came closer she just felt...soo...short of breath.
She was looking upon herself.
She wasn't really there where she was-in his arms.
Her uncertainty mistaken for shyness grew into his confidence.
Full of himself the conversation followed.
HE:why do you like me?(suddenly he was the alpha-male)
SHE: I don't.(clarity followed as she said it out loud , even to herself for the first time)
HE:(laughs and holds her closer.just cannot believe it.SMUG .SMUG!)So you came all the way here to meet me and you really want me to believe that you do not like me?
SHE:Actually and i mean it.It's like i like your lips.Your mouth and teeth.Your nose is pretty.I don't like YOU as such.Infact you're a little too full of yourself.
(She pushes him gently to explain.)
You see , all my friends I've grown up with since school have been kissed.Maybe i'm suffering from a low self-esteem and by the way does that not make you want to kiss me anymore?Is it "unattractive"?
i'm sorry it's just hard to be "cute silly girl in love with you" all the time.
Now tell me whether you want to kiss me?Just to try it?
And most importantly-If i do not like it , will you give me the liberty to pull back and not give me unnecessary baggage.
I mean you're cute and extremely sweet and have this very cute laugh. I don't like you otherwise.
And you know what i want to be kissed by you only if you really want to feel my mouth against your mouth.
Slowly at first because we have all the time in the world.And not if you only want to kiss me to get your hands to the places where you actually intended to go in which case i do not want to.
I do not want to kiss you.
It's this gut feeling and now i just want to go home.
I really just want to go home.
HE simply runs away for good!
Good for her(SHE).
Good for him(HE).
:-) MORAL OF THE STORY: Do some one good by giving them the truth :-)
